Dauphins World

I enjoyed the story (The End) and hope this finds you well.

I am now 43 yrs old and for the most of my life i have been a girl in a male body .I too am a christine and had to deal with some of the same things.
I was a sickly child so I was not very strong and to top it off I had naturaly curly hair all you had to do was slip a dress on me and there you go instant girl.

I tried fantasy's as i looked out the class room window and dreamed of becomeing a girl through science or magic just what ever I could dream up.

I then turned 18 and I made a bet that girls had it easyer than guys so in order to prove it a night on the town as a girl.

once my friends were done with me I was a girl I did look like one but I was free for a few hours.

I explaned my shaven body away cause some one had crabs at work and I wanted to keep clean just incase.

the eye brows were not a problem mine were pass for a girls any day.

After that night out as a girl I thought of nothing but the guy at the club grabing my ass and kissed my cheek.

I was in pure heaven then after we got back to there house all makeup and other stuff like cloths and panties hose and so forth were re moved .

I went home around 2 am and for weeks thoguht of nothing but how I felt.

thanks to my sezuers I was already an embarsement to my parents and brother and sister.

so any way they decided to go on vaction with out me it was just me.

so I called my friends up ,o h did i mention all my friends were girls even not dressed I was considered one of them.

I decided to buy a short set and panties and a bra.

I then put on some make up and got dressed and went to my friends house when I got there and got out of my car there I was free again the week was bliss I lived the entire week as a girl it was wonderful.

I now had a desion to make become who I needed to be and be happy or reamin a guy and not embaress my family any futher.

well I chose not to become the girl I should have been.

I married and love my wife very much.

the only time I am a girl is my online persona in on line games and chat and this is the only way I can be a girl now but when i do that I am truly a girl I even picture my self as a girl.

there is of course more to my tale but this is just the condensed verson

so see i know how you feel and even thoought about sucide my self but burning in hell did not apeal to me so i decided to see whats next. 

so good luck with what you decide to do with your life and I hope you become the person you need to be do not let your desicion be influnced by others like I did

reason why I now have a nervious dis order which also causes sezurs as well the shrink has no clue as to the real problem he thinks its mainly from a incident that was reocuring for two years.

but that is just the tip the true problem is I made a choice and my mind regrates it

question am i gay? no do I like guys? no if I was a girl would I like guys yes

and in girl I mean become one? yes

I woould be a girl there fore it would be ok if I liked guys but since im not I dont.

good luck

Anna

ps Anna is my female persona